went to lunch today with the lady i almost worked for, wish i worked for. we had the kind of conversation i always want to have: candid and meaningful, and realistically optimistic. if i write a movie about my life, i would make it so that i didn’t stay up until 4 in the morning the night before, getting near no sleep, and bumble through the conversation.
i asked her, is life just regularly being pushed down by tough situations, and you either get back up and be better at it next time, or get broken?
‘i don’t think you’re breakable’
she doesn’t think i’m breakable.
most of you already know that i got chucked out of the place i live with a day’s notice, followed by a string the length of the great wall of other horrible things that happened with the last three day. i have little interest in recounting them right now, maybe at a later date, when they will seem quaint and amusing. either way, 19 sounds too young to be a grownup, and i’ve always kind of treated myself as a grownup, and now i just wish i weren’t.
but i think this is one doodle that can’t be undid.
once they have your consent, you’re stuck in grownup land forever.
i’m going to find a really quiet church and sit, and maybe sleep, for a long time.
“once they have your consent, you’re stuck in grownup land forever”
This is 100% true, and I think you realizing this proves that you ARE in fact a grownup. There is no going back now. Bummer, huh?
“I don’t think your breakable” is a HUGE compliment in my opinion, and I hope you see it as such.
So, who would play you in the movie of your life? (You brought that question upon yourself.)
Comment by sarah — October 18, 2008 @ 9:36 pm
I think you’re unbreakable!
Comment by a is for accident — October 27, 2008 @ 5:05 pm
I don’t think you’re breakable either
Comment by Nicki — December 11, 2008 @ 3:29 pm